Stating the Obvious

As normal, it is something like 5.03 in the morning and i struggle to string words along. Not because I have nothing to say ( I don't.) but because I am drunk enough to prove the myth about not able to write straight when inebriated true. Why am I writing? Because people do strange thing when they are drunk.
 I just saw a number to things I had written/commented on on facebook i have absolutely no recollection. And I am listening to portishead. One of my great discoveries of 2010.
 I want a life. I have one, but I want a consistent one. One of Highs, which sustain, and give you memories like a bruise. Even after it melts away you always remember that it had been there, and exactly where too. I am sick and tired of days when my vision is so dark it seems like i am blind. then there are days its all so clear, my vision, that it is painful. I want those clear days. I realize the clear days happen when i am really drunk the night before. This is scary. What it means i mean. I want to have stuff that excites me. like it did before.
 Wow. this is the most juvenile post I have written in a LONG TIME. this is like a blast from the past. back to the future.  Wow. I am drunk. I will have a head ache tomorrow. Wow.